Living in a different country far away from home, it is expected for you to go through a journey of emotions. If it’s your first time like me; Excitement, nervousness, culture-shock, home-sickness, figuring out your individual self and among many other feelings, these become your day to day emotions that you just have to embrace. Except, no one ever warns you or explains what happens when death befalls upon you during this period of time.
Earlier today, I got the news of one of my classmates who just passed away in a car accident. The feeling of helplessness and knowing that there’s not really much I can do, is a feeling that I wouldn’t want to wish upon my worst enemy. Being thousands of miles away and not being able to comfort those who were close to Alex Paduch, not being able to pay my respects and grieve with those that knew him really kills. Alex Paduch, a young man full of life with a bright future in the world of journalism, was ready to take the world by storm.
Never thought that this would be how my last year of college would start. To be honest, death is one thing I don’t think I have learnt to cope with. It could be the fact that I am fortunate enough that I have not lost anyone so close to me, or just the fact that my heart is just stone cold and maybe it’s numb to the process of pain and grieve.
Wish there was a rule book that would teach and explain the feelings I am going through at this moment. Alex and I never talked much or hang out that often but we did have a heart to heart moment several times. We shared the same circle of friends, a common bond and we were part of the same family within our department.
Alex why did you have to leave us so soon. The fact that you will never get to experience love, marriage, family, a career, children, anniversaries and so much more is a clear reminder to the rest of us, that life is too short and we should enjoy every bit that it comes with. Both good and bad.
Although the world has lost yet another amazing human being, the heavens has gained another angel that will watch over us. You will forever be missed. RIP Alex Paduch